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Candice Holdorf

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Heading to the Nostos Screenwriting Retreat in Italy this fall

Candice Holdorf

I am thrilled and honored to be selected for the Nostos Screenwriting Retreat this September, where I will be writing with seven other talented screenwriters. This session’s mentors are filmmakers Tina Gharavi and Marya Cohn. I will continue developing my screenplay, Purity Ring. Excited to spend three weeks in Italy!

Join me at the Sonoma International Film Festival

Candice Holdorf

The Dance After the Last Dance is an official selection of the Sonoma International Film Festival. I am thrilled and honored to be part of this prestigious festival. Join me for the “Some Kind of Love” shorts block on Friday, May 24 at 1:45pm. Producer/Performer/Cinematographer Gabriel Diamond and cinematographer Mer al Dao will also be there.

I'm a semifinalist in the Screencraft Cinematic Short Story Competition

Candice Holdorf

One of my stories is a semifinalist! Top 36 out of 800 submissions. Thank you Screencraft for the honor. This feels especially sweet since the story takes place in the Druid Hills neighborhood of Atlanta (hometown shoutout!). This story, as well as the two others that made it to the quarterfinals, are in my book Reclaiming Eros: A Heroine’s Journey.

https://screencraft.org/blog/2023-screencraft-cinematic-short-story-competition-semifinalists/

Three of my short stories are quarterfinalists for the 2023 Screencraft Cinematic Short Story Competition!

Candice Holdorf

After 2+ years of pandemic stagnancy (well I was getting a Masters degree, but I was definitely missing the JUICE from daily life), I declared 2023 my year of CREATIVITY. I've been writing more (just finished my first full-length stage play - more on that soon) and am about to go on a little tour to promote my short film, The Dance After the Last Dance.

I've also been submitting my work to various labs, retreats, and competitions. I saw the Screencraft Cinematic Short Story Competition and thought, "Why not! I always see my work cinematically when I'm writing it." So I submitted four stories and three have gone on to the next round (out of 800 submissions)! No matter how the semifinals/finals go, I am excited to finally have a little more creative fuel to keep me going throughout 2023 :)

View the full list here: https://screencraft.org/blog/2023-screencraft-cinematic-short-story-competition-quarterfinalists/

'The Dance After the Last Dance' is playing at Lincoln Center!

Candice Holdorf

TL;DR

I directed/acted in a short film, 'The Dance After the Last Dance.' This is my solo directing debut, and the film has been accepted into four film festivals (so far). The schedule is at the bottom of this post if you want to see the film. View the trailer, read the director's statement, and stay up to date on screenings via my film's website: thedanceafter.com

LONGER VERSION

There have been a few moments when I've felt my capacity to handle "life" was stretched to its limit. In those moments, when I am raw and clinging to existence, I often have a vision of stunning clarity - as if a lifeline is being tossed my way. Those visions typically come in the form of creative expression, when my logical patterns of coping no longer apply.

I had such an experience at the height of lockdown. Gabriel and I were dancing blindfolded together. At one point, I felt the heaviness of all that I was carrying emotionally drop away – like a weighted backpack finally being tossed off. For the first time in over a year, my heart felt free. People often associate freedom with joy – and while that can sometimes be true, this freedom opened a space where my body (often in hypervigilance) could slow down enough to feel.

From this open space, I felt the collective grief of the world – whether it was from the deaths of those we loved or from the emotional loss of friends and family separated by miles (or a mere six feet). I had a vision that Gabriel was dead, and that I was dancing with his ghost. This dance would be the final opportunity for me to share everything I had ever wanted to share with him. In dancing with his metaphorical death, my own capacity to be present – in all of life’s gorgeous and heart wrenching complexity – came back to life. It was through this vision that ‘The Dance After the Last Dance’ was born. I wanted to transmit through film the healing power of movement, darkness, and private grief witnessed collectively.

It took me about six months to finally gather the courage to see if there was a 'there' there cinematically. I called Mer al'Dao - a frequent collaborator of mine and Gabriel's. I appreciate her sensitivity and respect for the organic process of filmmaking. It invited the trust needed for my emotional life to unfold. Her cinematography woven through Gabriel's camerawork (along with Adrian Stratulat's editing) created a tapestry of distance and closeness - and of tightly wound emotions and catharsis.

I was lucky to have Bobby Brinkerhoff join the project. His original sound design and music brought the film home in so many ways. His composition gently interlaces both the lighter, more ethereal notes with the heavier swells in a haunting score that captures the range of emotions one can have when losing a beloved: joy, rage, heartbreak, and grief.

Never did I think that this little piece would make it to Lincoln Center in New York City, where it will play as part of the 51st Annual Dance on Camera Film Festival. The film will also have its world premiere at Dance Camera West, an exciting dance film fest in LA. I'll also be part of the NYC Indie Theatre Film Fest, a cool festival that celebrate theatre artists branching out into digital media. And I'll be bringing it home to the Alameda Film Fest, which screened the short film I wrote, Generations, back in 2018.

I hope to see friends, old and new, at some of the screenings. Or, maybe a future screening at another festival (fingers crossed).

Thank you Gabriel for dancing with me. Thank you Mer, Bobby, and Adrian joining me on this tender little journey. And thank you to all the teachers who taught me that healing happens through the body.

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